So, I haven't blogged in awhile. Things have taken a decided turn for the negative. I've tried my hardest to overcome my food addiction, and I fail. I fail every day( I feel). And now I have to do what I hoped I'd never have to do again....
Inject insulin.
There's my pen.
I have to inject myself every night before bed. Not as bad as I remember it being. Kind of expensive though. It just seems that all my hard work is for naught.
I feel like I failed.
The truth is that I didn't fail, my body did. All the time I told myself that a little cheating was OK, caused this. I may or may not have been born this way, but I definitely made it worse with my sweet tooth.
There are lots of things I wish I could do over in life, this is most definitely one of them.
They say that this type of diabetes is hereditary. I hope my children never have to go through any of this. I would never wish diabetes on my worst enemy.
I wonder if I had lived my life a lot differently would I be well?
or
Would I always have this disease that will probably end my life?
All I know, is that I went to the movies today...and I cheated...a lot.
again...
as usual...
but the movie was awesome.